Why Georgia
John Mayer

I am driving up 85
in the kind of morning
that lasts all afternoon
im just stuck inside the gloom

Four more exits to my apartment
but I am tempted to keep the car in drive
and leave it all behind

Cuz I wonder sometimes
about the outcome
of a still verdictless life

Am i living it right
am i living it right
am i living it right
why why georgia, why

I rent a room and i fill the spaces
with wood in places to make it feel like home
but all i feel's alone

It might be a quarter life crisis
justa a stirrin in my soul

either way
i wonder sometime about the outcome
of a still verdictless life

am i living it right
am i living it right
am i living it right
why why georgia why

so what so i've got a smile on
but its hiding the quiet superstitions in my head
dont believe me
dont you dare believe me
when i say ive got it down

everybody's just a stranger
but that's the danger in
going my own way
i guess it's a price i have to pay
still "everything happens
for a reason"
is no reason not to ask myself ( its supose to be ourself)

If I'm living it right
am I living it right
am I living it right


why tell me why---
why why georgia why

Blush (Only you)
Plumb (Chaotic Resolve)

When you look at me i start to blush
and all that i can say is you and us
oh baby im so afraid to be in love
with you,
with you...

i wanna be in love with only you
i wanna watch the sky downgrade and blue
i wanna know the kiss thats always new
i wanna be in love with only you
just you

when stars are falling dark
will light the way
will hit the ground and fall
into the shade
ill light the night with fire
and run away

i wanna be in love with only you
i wanna watch the sky downgrade and blue
i wanna know the kiss thats always new
i wanna be in love with only you


i wanna be in love with you
i wanna be in love (i wanna be in love)
i wanna be in love with you
i wanna be in love (i wanna be in love)

i wanna be in love with you...

i wanna be in love with only you
i wanna watch the sky downgrade and blue
i wanna know the kiss thats always new
i wanna be in love with only you

just you
i wanna be
just you yeah

Nostalgic

Eres Tu
Mocedades

Como una promesa, eres tu, eres tu
Como una manana de verano
Como una sonrisa, eres tu, eres tu
Asi, asi, eres tu.

Toda mi esperanza, eres tu, eres tu
Como lluvia fresca en mis manos
como fuerte brisa, eres tu, eres tu
Asi, asi, eres tu

Eres tu como el agua de mi fuente
(Algo asi eres tu)
Eres tu el fuego de mi hogar
Eres tu como el fuego de mi hoguera
Eres tu el trigo de mi pan

Como mi poema, eres tu, eres tu
Como una guitarra en la noche
todo mi horizonte eres tu, eres tu
Asi, asi, eres tu

Eres tu como el agua de mi fuente
(Algo asi eres tu)
Eres tu el fuego de mi hogar
Eres tu como el fuego de mi hoguera
Eres tu el trigo de mi pan

Eres tu...

Dang, kinda hard to believe it's been so long already. Don't know what was it today that got me nostalgic. The song above used to be on the radio all the time as I was growing up. The other radios were playing Hall & Oates and all other (North) American music

It's a tough question

Nightswimming
REM

Nightswimming deserves a quiet night
The photograph on the dashboard, taken years ago,
Turned around backwards so the windshield shows
Every streetlight reveals the picture in reverse
Still, it's so much clearer
I forgot my shirt at the water's edge
The moon is low tonight

Nightswimming deserves a quiet night
I'm not sure all these people understand
It's not like years ago,
The fear of getting caught,
Of recklessness and water
They cannot see me naked
These things, they go away,
Replaced by everyday

Nightswimming, remembering that night
September's coming soon
I'm pining for the moon
And what if there were two
Side by side in orbit
Around the fairest sun?
That bright, tight forever drum
Could not describe nightswimming

You, I thought I knew you
You, I cannot judge
You, I thought you knew me,
This one laughing quietly underneath my breath
Nightswimming

The photograph reflects,
Every streetlight a reminder
Nightswimming deserves a quiet night, deserves a quiet night

When you wake up in the morning every day can you really say that you love what you do? Can you imagine doing the same thing for the rest of your life? A lot of things have happened in the last month that have made me think about those two questions.  I hadn't thought for a while about me, about having to be mindful of the little things...

When your doctor tells you that thenext time you see him you have to have lost at least 12 pounds that's what really freak me out.  I ain't getting any younger,  you know? and that's what's really sucky. 

Now is the time. Take all those things that you said you'd do and do them to the max.

The Best Of Times
Styx

Tonight’s the night we’ll make history, honey, you and i
And I’ll take any risk to tie back the hands of time
And stay with you here tonight
I know you feel these are the worst of times
I do believe it’s true
When people lock their doors and hide inside
Rumor has it it’s the end of paradise
But I know, if the world just passed us by
Baby I know, you wouldn’t have to cry

The best of times are when I’m alone with you
Some rain some shine, we’ll make this a world for two
Our memories of yesterday will last a lifetime
We’ll take the best, forget the rest
And someday we’ll find these are the best of times
These are the best of times

The headlines read ’these are the worst of times’
I do believe it’s true
I feel so helpless like a boat against the tide
I wish the summer winds could bring back paradise
But I know, if the world turned upside down
Baby, I know you’d always be around

The best of times are when I’m alone with you
Some rain some shine, we’ll make this a world for two

Our memories of yesterday will last a lifetime
We’ll take the best, forget the rest
And someday we’ll find these are the best of times
These are the best of times

And
So my friends we’ll say goodnight for time has claimed it’s prize
But tonight will always last
As long as we keep alive memories of paradise...

Doctor scared the living crap out of me yesterday

It's one thing to know you're not living a healthy lifestyle. 'tis  something completely different when it's your doctor who tells you that if you don't make changes you're going to be up the creek, in a broken boat, and without a paddle.

Having to start thinking about PSA, cholesterol, BP, BMI... it just sucks

Talking 'bout a revolution
Tracy Chapman (Tracy Chapman)

Don't you know
Their talkin' about a revolution
It sound like a whisper
Don't you know
They're talkin' about a revolution
It sounds like a whisper

While they're standing in the welfare lines
Crying at the doorsteps of those armies of salvation
Wasting time in the unemployment lines
Sitting around waiting for a promotion

Don't you know
Their talkin' about a revolution
It sound like a whisper

Poor people gonna rise up
And get their share
Poor people gonna rise up
And take what's theirs

Don't you know
You better run, run, run...(+9)
Oh I said you better
Run, run, run...(+9)

And finally the tables are starting to turn
Talkin'about revolution

Yes finally the tables are starting to turn
Talkin'about revolution oh no

While they're standing in the welfare lines
Crying at the doorsteps of those armies of salvation
Wasting time in the unemployment lines
Sitting around waiting for a promotion

Their talkin' about a revolution
It sound like a whisper

And finally the tables are starting to turn
Talkin'about revolution

Yes finally the tables are starting to turn
Talkin'about revolution oh no
Talkin'about revolution oh no
Talkin'about revolution oh no

All Around The World
Lisa Stanfield

Spoken:

I don't know where my baby is

but I'll find him, somewhere, somehow

I've got to let him know how much I care

I'll never give up looking for my baby



Chorus:

Been around the world and I, I, I

I can't find my baby

I don't know when, I don't know why

Why he's gone away

And I don't know where he can be, my baby

But I'm gonna find him



We had a quarrel and I let myself go

I said so many things, things he didn't know

And I was oh oh so bad

And I don't think he's comin' back, mm mm



He gave the reason, the reasons he should go

And he said so many things he never said before

And he was oh oh so mad

And I don't think he's comin', comin' back



I did too much lyin', wasted too much time,

Now I'm here a'cryin', I, I, I



Chorus



So open hearted, he never did me wrong

I was the one, the weakest one of all

And now I'm oh oh so sad

And I don't think he's comin' back, comin' back



I did too much lyin', wasted too much time,

Now I'm here a'cryin', I, I, I



Chorus x 2



I'm gonna find him, my baby



I did too much lyin', wasted too much time,

Now I'm here a'cryin', I, I, I



Chorus



I've been around the world, lookin' from my baby

Been around the world, and I'm gonna

I'm gonna find him



Chorus

Dreamlilne
Rush (Roll The Bones)

He's got a road map of Jupiter
A radar fix on the stars
All along the highway
She's got a liquid-crystal compass
A picture book of the rivers
Under the Sahara

They travel in the time of the prophets
On a desert highway straight to the heart of the sun
Like lovers and heroes, and the restless part of everyone
We're only at home when we're on the run
On the run

He's got a star map of Hollywood
A list of cheap motels
All along the freeway
She's got a sister out in Vegas
The promise of a decent job
Far away from her hometown

They travel on the road to redemption
A highway out of yesterday -- that tomorrow will bring
Like lovers and heroes, birds in the last days of spring
We're only at home when we're on the wing
On the wing

When we are young
Wandering the face of the Earth
Wondering what our dreams might be worth
Learning that we're only immortal
For a limited time

Time is a gypsy caravan
Steals away in the night
To leave you stranded in Dreamland
Distance is a long-range filter
Memory a flickering light
Left behind in the heartland

We travel in the dark of the new moon
A starry highway traced on the map of the sky
Like lovers and heroes, lonely as the eagle's cry
We're only at home when we're on the fly
On the fly

When we are young
Wandering the face of the Earth
Wondering what our dreams might be worth
Learning that we're only immortal
For a limited time

We travel on the road to adventure
On a desert highway straight to the heart of the sun
Like lovers and hereos, and the restless part of everyone
We're only at home when we're on the run
On the run...

A good example

A memorial for Ron Schipper (emphasis mine)

Duane Willhite '79
After reading Bob Schueler's comment about wishing he had the mature mind while in college to absorb Schipper's full impact, I feel I must share my story. It wasn't until 7 years after graduation that the light went on for me.

In my first year of being a head football coach at Sheffield, Iowa, coach stopped to recruit some athletes and probably more importantly, to check up on one of his guys. I was working on grades and my open book was littered with C's and D's for the sophomore biology students.

I had told myself I was a tough teacher, they had to work hard for good grades in this class. As we chatted Coach noticed my work and commented about how many poor grades there were in that class. I said, "Ya, they didn't do too well."

His reply was "It looks like you didn't motivate them well enough."

Whoa! I was wrong, its not about how hard you work or about how good an individual is. Its about what you've done to make those around you better. As an educator, coach, or in any leadership position, this is the lesson we take from Coach. This is his standard of success and how he won 287 games over 36 years and impacted all of us. He did amazing things to make us all better. Thanks Coach.

Coach Ron Schipper was the head (american) football at Central, the school where I did my undergraduate work. He was such a great man. Everyone who knew him was changed by him and even those who didn't know him directly (like me) where changed by the people he touched. The post above is the best homage that people can render to him or to anyone else that I can think of.

It's made me reflect a lot on life, choices made and disappoinments I've thought I made. It's an eye opener that people seem not to share the thoughts  you had about things you did.  It's a call to redouble the effort and to really be there, not just in the abstract but in the "here and now moment" where things really matter.

I think I'm gonna stay in Chico for another year or 2.  As much as I bitch about it, Chico has really been a great experience and something that came at the right time for all the wrong reasons.  Monday night I was having coffee downtown, enjoying my white mocha with a good book on my hands when I started talking to a guy I meet ocassionally when I'm there. Maybe in an oblique way he reminded me of what I want to do but, most importantly, he asked why I want to go get a doctorate; what is the driving force?  It may sound childish but a lot of the impetus was the first in my family to do anythng academically. I've always thought it was odd to hear some of my friends from college saying "I'm the first one in my family to attend college/Graduate School" or "I'm the first one in my family to graduate from college/with a Master's". I always took that for granted since both my parents have masters (2 of them in the case of my mom ). Sure, between my parents and I have done a lot academically but there is, there has to be more to that and I didn't realize it until I sat down to finish this post tonight.

I'm always humbled by what, I think is undeserved praise, although it's obviously deserved if people give it freely. I got a letter from antwerplettuce. It's a little handwritten note that touched something off that I didn't know was there.  I've been told before that I'm my own worst critic and that it's not a healthy situation. I'll add to the chorus of comments: Your perception of things and the perception of those things for the people who are around you may be diametrically different.

In a post a while back I asked the open ended question based on Thoreau's Walden: "What does it mean to live deliberately?" I think I got an answer that is satisfying and who will let me do what I want now rather than wait another 7 years to get it: "Do what makes you happy while making the world a little better for those around you." I guess I've known it all along but a degree or where I am is not what makes my life a success. It's the people I surround myself with and the quality of the relationships I build.

Overjoyed
Jars of Clay (Much Afraid)

You name me
Who am I
That I should company with something so divine?
Mercy waits, Overjoyed
Prospect of finding, freeing
Freeing me

[Chorus:]
Love is the thing this time I'm sure
And I couldn't need you more now
The way that you saw things were so pure
Overjoyed

You name me
Entertain
Thoughts of peace can overcome anything
Mirror spins
Wicked tales
Here lies reflections of
Deceptions of

[Chorus]

Missing the me from you you gave to me
I don't like the one I have created today
Crossing nameless from the one I've earned
To be the one, the one you gave to me

You name me
Name Me
Finding, freeing me

[Chorus x 2]

Overjoyed, Overjoyed